Dear Lord Jesus,

     I know it is forbidden in the Bible to speak to those who have left this life, so I ask You to speak to my children on my behalf - these words:

To my children who are both in Glory.

     I know God has given you both perfect understanding of your short lives with me.  For that, I have great peace in my heart.

     It was shameful - the pride of life - that drove me to cause your destruction.  I literally sacrificed you to my enemy, Satan, and I know now - it is he who desired to destroy you and made me believe that it was okay.

     I thank my Lord and Savior for His long suffering - the years He waited until I sought our Creator's love.

     I am jealous for all that you know of God, as you love and praise and worship Him in His Heaven.

     I pledge my life to be God's servant in bringing others to the foot of the cross where Jesus died.  I will not let your short lives be in vain.  It is only after your deaths that I was drawn to know Jesus and found His promise of life eternal.  I know now that life eternal comes only in the belief that Jesus died for our sins.

     For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world - through Him -might be saved.

     He that believeth on Him is not condemned; but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
                                                            John 3:16-18

     I know now that God watched His Son, Jesus, die on the cross.  He watched His Son be buried and God's power raised His Son from the grave giving us the Hope of Glory that you two now share in Heaven.

     Because of you two, I sought answers, truth and God Almighty.  I praise God - for I have found all three.  For years, I thought life "just happens," but now I know God has a plan for my life.  I am deeply involved with His plan for my life and I am so honored that He trusts me with FAWNN.

     You two precious children are a tiny portion of a multitude in Heaven rejected by mankind.  I pray mankind will come to know The Heart of the Father and His grief over our rejection of the tiny lives He creates.

     I know you two can do nothing to influence us here on earth. But know this - I dedicate my life to making a difference for other moms who have lost their children at the hands of Satan.

     I am so sorry for the pain I caused you both. I look forward to the day we will meet.  I look forward to the day we will be reunited.  I look forward to the instant I meet my Savior, Jesus, face-to-face.  What a day of rejoicing that will be.

My love to you both,
Mom